I’ve always had an obsessive personality.
When I was fifteen, I was so into dog training that I would spend hours reading up on things like clicker training and positive reinforcement. My parents finally threw up their hands and told me that I could (and should) train a service dog. That was that.
When I was seventeen, I drew out an entire map of our garden and had our soil’s pH tested and read every single magazine on organic gardening.
So it’s little wonder that I’m so consumed—so engrossed!—by my current job hunt.
Because this isn’t just an organic head of lettuce we’re talking about.
This is life.
I started to panic a little this afternoon. Like…did I make the right career decision? Do I belong here? What happened to all of my goals and how come nothing is panning out like I had planned? Why are no full time dietitian jobs opening up?
Honestly, I’ve had things pretty easy up until now.
I was accepted to the nutrition program at UMass my first time around. I was also accepted to their internship…first time. And now? Everything is on hold. And as obsessive as I am, I’m just as impatient. I absolutely hate, hate, hate sitting on my hands. Just waiting. Ugh.
It’s like I expect everything to go smoothly all.of.the.time. Even though deep down I know that’s so superficial of me. Because sometimes? Sometimes we have to pull on our boxing gloves and fight to make our dreams a reality.
After much deliberation and venting (and..gulp…whining) I’ve finally come to two conclusions.
(1) I’m not going to obsess.
Admittedly, obsessing is as natural as breathing oxygen. I have an obsessive personality! But I’m going to focus on the other things that make my life so meaningful. I’m going to read in the Bible more and trust God with everything. I’m going to dig in deep. I’m also going to enjoy other areas of my life that I might not normally be able to enjoy as much once I *am* working full time.
(2) I’m going to grow and develop my career (even without a job.)
I love nutrition! Sometimes life just throws a few curve balls and I have to learn to swing around them. This might mean creating some new goals in the process. Taking baby steps.
And, ultimately, I need to make myself as competitive as possible. This means expanding my education, volunteering, and taking on each and every new experience as they come. No more sitting back and waiting for me. No more obsessing or worrying.
I’m moving ahead.
QUESTION: Do you have an obsessive personality like me or are you able to focus on many different things without letting the “big stuff” ever feel too heavy in your life? What are some of your tried and true secrets for dealing with life’s curve balls?