It’s not easy being a control freak when everything is completely, absolutely, 100% out of control.
This morning I applied to the job that I’ve wanted ever since I entered my first year as a nutrition student. I’m hungry for it. I’m ready to work and learn and grow, and I only wish I knew exactly how to emphasize this on a cover letter and resume without sounding like I’m ridiculously desperate. 😉
The biggest problem?
I fall slightly short of the qualifications, and I can’t help but sit here and feel antsy, knowing that right now someone is analyzing my resume. I can just picture it. One hand on my resume, the other hovering over the paper shredder. Exhaustively weeding through endless numbers of applications.
You may have noticed the obvious…
…I have absolutely no control over this situation.
It’s making me crazy.
Have you ever wished you could create your own path? Make everything work out exactly how you want it? The guy of your dreams would fall head over heels in love with you. You’d spend your summer in Paris (when you weren’t perusing around Italy.) You’d land your dream job.
Have you ever wished you could create your own path?
Yeah. Me too.
It’s in my (control freakish) nature to want to hold on to things tightly, with a clenched, white knuckled fist.
Everything must be just so.
But then I’m reminded of this simple phrase: Let Go, Let God. It doesn’t matter how tightly I hold on to everything or how hard I wish it to be. It doesn’t matter that I want everything to be perfect (and yet, inevitably, it isn’t.)
What matters is that God is in control. What matters is that He knows way beyond what my simple mind can comprehend. What matters is that He always knows the best route and that if I just let go, release my death grip and open up my hands, He’ll take over.
I may still be antsy and uncomfortable (I really, really, really want this job!) but (*sigh*…yes…okay) I’m willing to let go.
Let go. Let God.
Besides. I never really was the one in control in the first place. 😉
QUESTION: Do you like to always feel in control or are you really relaxed ?